Way back when Voyager was airing, I was a cute little adolescent with a cute little website dedicated to the series. I posted the usual fare, screencaps and photo edits, my fanfiction, and my terribly earnest thoughts about my favorite characters and episodes. But thematically the site was devoted to shipping all the characters of Voyager, and all the pairings of Voyager, because, let’s be real, lost in space with only a vague hope for getting home, there had to have been a lot more hooking up on that ship than what we got to see on screen. The name of my site was:
“Kathryn Is Lonely dot com”, which, I have to be honest here, I still find super clever and adorable. Janeway is a very hands on captain, and she readily blurs the boundaries between the personal and the professional, even on the bridge. But she holds herself deliberately separate from the crew in terms of romance and intimate relationships. The result is a ship full of messy, twisty, complicated relationships that bring up a lot of messy, twisty, complicated feelings. Which is a pretty good metaphor for adolescence.
I related to B’Elanna’s desire to belong, and fear she never would. To Seven missing the Collective because it’s scary to be suddenly alone and responsible for yourself and your choices. To Tom’s need to prove himself. And to Kathryn’s isolation. I was lonely, too, and I wanted to talk about it. So I published my website, and then: I found fandom.
The Star Trek fandom was my first fandom and it gave me a sense of belonging. Most of my friends were not interested in sci-fi and fantasy, so it was nice to see that there were plenty of other girls out there who were and that it was ok. – IceCream_Junkie
I’ve made many valuable friends due to fandom – some of whom I’ve had since Voyager introduced me to the concept of fandom. – Cheile
I have been part of a small online Voyager group ever since it was on air in the 90’s….I have literally grown up with these people, helped them through difficult times in their lives as they’ve helped me through mine…We used to be a silly little roleplaying and discussion group and now we’re family. – jadethe2nd
For so long I didn’t see myself as a “trekkie”. I liked many of the series but I thought I didn’t know enough to be a true fan, that I hadn’t watched enough. But then I found the Voyager fandom and I truly felt it was enough to just love Star Trek and it was amazing. – inwaitforsomethingbetter
Voyager finished over 20 years ago. But the fandom is alive and well. The show finished but fans weren’t done with it. I’m not sure we ever will be. – Amy / Quirkette
I define fandom as a community of people united by passion for a certain something. But that is merely the foundation. A fandom tends to be less homogenous than groups united by age, location, ethnicity, gender, or similar defining traits and it encourages engaging with different perspectives. Creating, sharing, and critiquing fan works allows new authors and artists to grow in a comfortable and supportive environment divorced from the capitalist machine that dominates Western society. Fandom toxicity, gatekeeping, ship-wars – negativity exists, and hurts, but fandom can, and does, battle against it and strive to evolve past it, becoming more inclusive and more supportive, not less.
The Voyager fandom didn’t only accept me, they encouraged me. I was most active in the subfandom dedicated to the relationship between Kathryn Janeway and Tom Paris, through a website known as JuPiter Station. I posted stories and art, participated in contests, and exchanged emails about Star Trek, and life, with people from all over the country. They were my collective.
Star Trek has been a constant in my life since I was 12, something that I’ve always been able to turn to for comfort – canardroublard
I joined after trying my hand at writing, which is something I had never done before, but everyone has been so supportive and helpful, writing is now a huge part of my life. – jhelenoftrek
I honestly don’t know who I’d be without Star Trek fandom. – cosmic-llin
Three years ago, I decided to rewatch Voyager. When I got to the fourth episode, “Time and Again”, wherein the captain and her helmsman are sent back in time one day on a planet the ship found destroyed, all my Janeway/Paris feels flooded back. I decided to photocap the episode (recap the story by adding captions to screenshots) and post it to tumblr. It was a lot of fun, so I kept going. I’m currently in season three and starting Enterprise. Slowly but surely, I started to creep back into Star Trek fandom.
But it wasn’t until the premiere of Star Trek: Discovery that I truly engaged with people the way I had as a teen. Like Captain Janeway herself, I’d imposed all these rules on myself for how I interacted with the fandom. I thought my blog had to post original content only. I’d fallen prey to the idea I had to have and be “brand.” But I chanced to see a post on tumblr asking for more information about the items on display in Captain Georgiou’s ready room and I not only had an answer, I had an emotional and familial connection to it. I grew up surrounded by shadow puppetry and East Asian culture and I cried when I saw it displayed in Discovery’s pilot.
So I broke my arbitrary rule. I reblogged the post and told my story. And in that moment I realized I’d been going about everything all wrong. People didn’t respond to my photocaps because they were full of buzzwords or somehow marketable. They responded because they were full of love and somehow me.
Through those photocaps, I’ve reconnected with the Voyager and the wider Star Trek fandom, and it has significantly improved my life. I write regularly — fiction, analysis, recaps, essays. I present at conventions and guest on podcasts. I’m studying Star Trek and psychology to complete my Master’s Degree. And I’ve not only met hundreds of new people, I’ve reconnected with people I knew when Voyager was on the air.
Coming back to Trek fandom through Discovery … feels like coming home. – Liz
Thank god for fanfic to give us what canon so often screws up! – Heavyheadedgal
As of late, I have found that just as Kira was my role model for adulthood when I was a teen, Katrina Cornwell is who I wish to emulate when I am older. Having an older female character who is powerful yet vulnerable, smart yet fallible and remarkably well-rounded has been so important for me. She gives me hope. – notjanebond
And through Discovery, and my beloved Admiral Cornwell, I’ve found another pocket fandom I can exchange stories and ideas with, participate in challenges and speculation, and chat about Star Trek — or anything else — at any time of the day or night. I’ve loved Discovery’s first season, but it also caused me a lot of anxiety, particularly centered around the fate of my Admiral. In between the episodes “Si Vis Pacem, Para Bellum” and “Into the Forest I Go” StarTrek.com published an interview with Jayne Brook suggesting Cornwell’s on screen death was real despite that making no narrative sense to me. I reacted very strongly, had an emotional breakdown. But the fandom rallied. We made plans to write all the fic, to fill in her backstory, spin off into alternate realities if canon cut us off. We would keep her alive no matter what.
(A fanvid made by Anika to celebrate Katrina Cornwell and her legion of fans)
Through the character of Katrina Cornwell, and the community of devoted fans that cropped up around her, I found the strength to pull myself out of my panic attack over her alleged death. And by sharing how hard it hit me, I was able to give all that positive energy right back to the fandom.
DS9 got me through living and working in a place where I didn’t speak the language and had to learn it. TNG was there for me when I was laid off as an immigrant worker. Voyager was there for me when I just needed to feel at home in a foreign place. And these fantastic women on the internet were there to talk me through my show-awakened feelings about being queer and mixed race and fighting back against fans who don’t want to be inclusive. – reflectingiridescent
It’s a lot healthier to argue about Trek than my humanity. And if I’m arguing Trek, there’s less time to worry about bigots. – autistiqueer
I dove headfirst into Trek fandom with the release of the first reboot movie in 2009, just after I’d left an abusive relationship. I found great creative unbottling there, as well as connections with people from all corners of the internet and the world. – Emily
I really enjoy the fact that in late-2010s Tumblr Voyager fandom, many people refer to Janeway as having clinical depression. The character’s depression is fairly explicit…but never referred to as such on-screen, so it’s really nice, as a person with depression, to get to see that part of the story discussed in as many words, and to get to read others’ writing about a shared beloved fictional character with the same problem I have. – Meg
I do a lot of different things in life, have several roles, and am passionate about them all but I find that what I look forward to most of all, what gets me up out of bed in the morning is my time spent interacting with the fandom in whatever way it happens to be that day. Star Trek might just be the most important part of my life and you know what, I’m ok with that. -themostpowerfulmagicofall
My personal and emotional life was in upheaval when Voyager ended and also when Discovery began. Through all that, I engaged with Star Trek because it gave me hope. But hope isn’t something to be hoarded, it’s best shared.
The quotes used in this article are responses to a survey the author conducted through tumblr on Star Trek Fandom Positivity. All are posted with permission.